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Life ItselfThe only time I smiled today
Was when I thought of dying
And how good I am at lying
Each and every single day.

I've got a box of painkillers
They sleep right by my bed
For when all I see is red,
They'll numb it into darkest white.

I've tried talking to people,
But I can't word what I want to say
And maybe I like living this way,
Knowing that I'll die soon.

I know I'm self-destructive
My crosshatch skin screams it
But inside there's a little bit
That still aches to be saved.

I've tried before and I'll try again
To put my worthlessness away
But fate forced me to stay;
Death's a bitch like that.

Life makes me want to die
Yet it won't let me

Living a Lie.Living a Lie.

You say things you don't mean when you're angry.
You call me a waste of space and that you can't stand me.

When the dust settles you say you don't mean it.
You say I should know better than to believe it.

As usual I foolishly upkeep your illusive hold on me.
I allow you to mute my thoughts and take control of me.

You promise and reassure me that it will never happen again.
That this is the last time and you will put it all to an end.

But I know promises only comfort fools,
Who readily allow others to pull the wool

Over our eyes because it is easier to swallow the lies.
Can it be a mistake if it happens more than tw

Am I pretty yet?

Erik came home feeling great. He couldn't quite place it, but it was nice. Maybe it was the mid-november sun, or the new song he'd listened to that morning. Whatever it was, he didn't care. He was just happy.
Erik walked through his house, yelling out the names of his family members. No one answered. He dropped his bag and ran up the stairs. He made a sharp right turn and stopped in front of the red wooden door tha led to his mother's room. He slowly edged it open, expecting to find her sleeping soundly. To his suprise, she wasn't there at all. He walked further into the room, realizing he was alone in the house. This was unuasual, cons

Girt by GrimOnce long ago
This land once called earth
Where millions of humans
Forget what they're worth
Thousands jumped from bridge and building
Drowned and unleashed bodies burning
Thousands wallowed forever in the depths
Holding themselves and all that was left
Of the shell of humanity that once shined so bright

The lights are dimming on this world of woe
The only ones left, are the ones that want to go
The ones causing suffering
Have received nothing
The bullies and thieves
Have no dreams to weave

The light is dimming
On this world, so fucked
Because this world
(a long time ago)
Ran out of luck

Your ReaperDie for me and cry
Life is done for you now,
Another day your heart bleeds out
And another day wasted away.

I'm not going to leave you helpless
But I won't help you much,
I'm going to close your eyes
With my long cold fingers.

The sun shines on your bed
And I chuckle at the thought of your death,
I reach down to your shoulders
And then I grasp your neck.

You look at me with a face of shock
And you try to yell no!
But you were to busy dreaming of a better way
To end your life
Without me
Your reaper.

Ashes To Dust.Let my body burn to ashes,
Let my soul turn to dust,
But you must let me go,
The way that I must.

Or else my grave will never be filled,
Because I wont die alone,
I'll take one of you with me,
Until were both dirt and bones.

I would never let you leave,
I would keep you here you see,
You would soon not know anything,
But drifting with me.

Distance.You're so wonderful
And yet so far away,
I'll love you always
And never let go.

You are so beautiful
And wonderfully complete,
I'll always know to listen
And remember to forget.

I hope that we will keep
This relationship we have,
And never let it slip away
So we could be crazy mad.

Harder to WatchIs it harder
to watch
your world fall apart
than
to get up
and try
again?

You always say
that you want
to give up
You want
to give in

You say
the path ahead
will
break you

It is
full of danger
and sorrow
pain
and fear

You want
a break
from the world
and all it says
and does

You say
trying is
too hard
and it does
not help

But it is
harder
to watch
your world fall apart
than
to get up
and try
again.

One cannot
simply stand
and watch
as the glass shatters

One cannot
simply stand
and watch
as the world crumbles
around them

Because it is
harder to watch
your world fall apart
than
to get up
a

Love until DeathI look through the window of the airplane,
What I see I cannot explain,
I see her name in the blue sky!
She’s haunting me, I don’t know why.

How many poems for her I have written,
From everyone my feelings for her I have hidden.
I thought my love for her will not last long,
Time passed and I was proven wrong.

Our difference and distance did not change my heart,
This feeling in my life plays its part.
Same rhymes in my poems many can hear,
As my love for her will never disappear.

To forget her many times I tried,
But my soul to me always lied,
And I still live with this lie,
I will love until I die…

Nightmares Kill FaithWaking up late at night
Crying because you have no sight,
Darkness whistles like a piercing screech
And your ears wish to hear the sound of speech.

They wish they could hear those special words,
"It will be okay you'll be saved by the lord"
But really you will lay there so cold and alone
Learning that when it's over there will be no home.

You fall back to sleep and your eyes become heavy
The nightmare comes back and the tears break the levy,
You cry and you wish that sleep would soon come
But as long as you feel there is no hope
You'll sit there lifeless and tie up the rope.

A Letter To My MotherAll the lies once said have become the truth
Everything once tightened has become so loose,
Now everything has burst into a dust
Blowing away and taking my trust.

I risked everything but you let it slip
That chance you had that you let sit,
It's gone and the pain is as real as ever
So you blame me with scorn you feel that is light as a feather.

I wish it were the case
That this hate would come on so light,
But mom, I can't handle this pain,
The troubles and the dishonesty
Won't make us sane.

To YouOceans apart,
Day after day,
As i slowly go insane,
My sanity soon,
A long lost memory.

If i see you next to never,
How can we say forever?
All i ever wanted was to save a bed,
And have you sleep in arms instead.

I had promised,
What ever it takes,
No matter how much my heart breaks,
I would wait for you...
I may need to break that promise,
My dear...

I re-read those conversations,
I look at those sweet things you said,
And my heart breaks,
Over...
And over...
Again...

I always wondered how we would last,
This little romance,
I always thought,
That what ever it took,
I would take the chance.

But i can't.
The pain i

RefrainWatching the night and the bright burning stars
Hailing them though they're impossibly far
Wishing that you could be all that they are
While I hold you close to my heart

     I love you, adore you, dear Trickster, my King
     You are my song, and you taught me to sing

Bearing the weight your fate calls you to bear
Carrying all of your worries and cares
Hiding behind all the masks that you wear
Won't you rest, safely here, in my heart?

     You are my solace, you are my delight
     You lead me to dawn through the dark of the night

you wereyou were my fire
you were my desire

if i only knew what i know now
i'll never understand how
you can stand there and lie
when you see the tears in my eyes

you were my fire
my drive, my desire
scarred from the burns
you were just another lesson to learn

you only come around when you want sympathy
while i still, foolishly hope for you and me
you still knock where there used to be a door
but, while i love you, i can't love you anymore

you were my hope
my faith, my home
but i lost you, i may've never had you to begin with
love is a word you destroyed with each of your promises

resting comfortably on the bottom
waiting patiently

Good MorningPeople say
they don’t like mornings.
I don’t understand that

Morning is watching Tom and Jerry
while the coffee brews.
Morning is a catnap on the couch
as bacon sizzles in the pan.
Morning is too much syrup on pancakes
so there’s some left for the toast to soak up.

I let the dog out
to the blue before dawn,
pour myself a cup of coffee
filling up my Hello Kitty mug
and stir a bit of creamer (French Vanilla)
to give it more flavor.

The sun begins to rise
and my alarm sounds at exactly
6:05.
Groaning, I reach to turn it off
and trudge downstairs
where my mother waits.
“Good morning!” she cheerfully states
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The One Way Ticket

by ~PassionateMasochist, Oct 6, 2012, 6:54:56 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Too many friends
Write up their list,
The one with reasons for saying goodbye
Then they slit their wrists.

Too many friends
Buy a one way ticket,
But I promise you this,
I'll be with you until the end.

No more goodbyes
And no more stains,
No more red
Slipping down the drains.

It's time to stop
This cycle of pain,
And I hope it will not
Ever happen again.

Too many times
I've let you slip,
And too many times
I've caused that slit.

It hurts me to know
That you might just be
That one friend,
Who buys the ticket
To be away from me.

The One Way Ticketby ~PassionateMasochist

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I'm here for you.

Critique by ~gothchick913 Oct 7, 2012, 4:27:36 PM

Very well worded piece and the imagry is amazing without a doubt. It has a strong impact, expecially to a person who has experianced those emotions. I also loved the way you used the ticket as a symbol. I also liked the way you promised your support to the bitter end. Not many people would be willing to make that kind of offer. I honestly hope you continue to write more beautiful pieces like this because this is one amazing piece. Great job. I look forward to many more amazing pieces in the near or far future. Thank you for writing it.

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~DALover26 Jan 29, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Simply amazing writing!

It's a heart-throbbing poem that makes you visualize your best friend, or you, buying a one way ticket away. I loved it!

~PassionateMasochist Jan 30, 2013 Professional Writer

thanks

~c1oud9 Oct 16, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

This is deep
I can really identify with it
It's true
It is a one way ticket
But this brings hope that you are different then those who left us behind

~PassionateMasochist Oct 16, 2012 Professional Writer

I would read your comment but it looks jumbled...

~c1oud9 Oct 16, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I wrote that your piece was really deep and that I could identify with it a lot.. But that it gives hope that there are people who are different then those who left us behind
Could you read that?

~PassionateMasochist Oct 16, 2012 Professional Writer

Yes.

~penguinsCrazy08 Oct 15, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

This is a very emotional piece. I enjoyed your way of stylizing the issue. And I can't help thinking that it isn't your fault. I hope all parties involved find sunny days.